Discipleship Speaking

I’ll admit it, I’ve hit a wall.

Specifically, as I’ve been trying to write this book, after a few months of momentum (writing almost daily), a busy summer and some new ministry commitments have really “frozen” (for lack of a better term) my motivation to write. But it isn’t just the schedule shifts that are to blame. I also find myself feeling less and less conviction that I have anything to add to what’s already out there, and that whatever I do end up creating will be mediocre at best. I find myself wondering: is this really where my voice belongs?

But before I can answer that, I have to admit that I’m not exactly sure what my voice sounds like anyway. Am I trying to create a movement? Am I simply critiquing what’s out there in hopes of speeding up the transition to Church 2.0? Am I speaking to those that have left the church, or to those who are leading what’s left of it?

What does my voice sound like?

I don’t know if I have any answers yet. But what I do know is that by asking this question, I’ve been finding myself on new, really useful trains of thought, specifically ones that have to do with discipleship and vocation. As I ask myself what my voice sounds like and where my voice might fit, I’ve begun to envision new, hopeful possibilities for what following Jesus looks like in the context of my life, possibilities that ring true to who I am and what brings me joy.